Much needed update

Ok I really need to start writing more so I don't forget all of this! So let's see... After the fireworks I didn't see Zach again 'til Saturday. But Thursday morning I did find a stuffed elephant (Uncle Sam Snuffles), a pink & white rose, and a card from him on my car when i left for work! Hooray! I love it! Ok so then Saturday he picked me up and we went to Bloomington. Oliver Winery was a blast. Tried 7 different wines and then he bought 6 bottles (2 were for one of his buddies). We sat outside and drank a bottle of Hard Cider before we left. I got a bit tipsy and he started trying to pour his heart out to me and I got all nervous but it was cute. So we left there and were somewhere around Martinsville and he said he had to pee. He stopped at a gas station , which I wasnt thrilled about but it was a gas america with indoor bathrooms so it could have been worse. anyway there was no hook on the door for my purse and i didnt want to put it on the floor so i set it on the back of the toilet. then i turned around to read what you get for 75 cents from the "love" machine on the wall. And I heard a splash. God dammit my entire purse fell in the fucking toilet!!! I grabbed everything out, peed, then went out to his truck, toting the dripping bag. I told him what happened and he laughed his ass off and told me to get in the truck. He wasn't even mad about toilet water in his truck. Unfortunately my phone didnt survive the swim which made me so mad. But anyway so then we were supposed to go meet his sister and her fiance but i was a mess so we just went to muncie. We stopped at meiejer for alcohol and hamburger buns and he freaking paid for my jager!!! it was so sweet and i almost died. never really had that before. and he bought 24 beers of the kind he knows my brother likes so that he could share. i love it! anyway so up in muncie we drank for like 8 hours (almost a whole fifth of je\ager for me, wow) and didnt go to bed til 4. zach and i did sleep on the same futon but i didnt let him get away with anything too frisky. actually i wasnt going any further than kissing. wow, impressive. so anyway i guess at some point he took annie aside and told her how much he's into me. aaron and annie love him. and he and bryan got along great too. and no one woke me up at 530 demanding that i take him home :) so i woke up at 9 in the morning and watched ET while he slept. he got up around 11 and we left. i needed some food but i guess we had already passed the taco bell by the time i mentioned wanting taco bell and he actually turned the truck around and drove back to get me some, cause i said i didnt want a hamburger. gosh this guy is nice. so he dropped me off, cause he had to go play softball. but after his game he came over and we watched out cold. great movie. he lft and as he was walking to his truck he sais "its gonna be me" and i told himt o shut the hell u and closed the door. but then i sent him a text msg saying i was starting to believe him about that but its scary and to be patient cause i barely know him. he sent me one back saying that i do know him but it's ok, i've got all the time i need and for now i should just go to sleep and have sweet dreams. perfect. so then lets see... he camde over tuesday just to hang out. then aaron called crying so we had to go get him from my parwents but zach handled it well. so me aaron and zach hung out til mom came to get aaron. mom thinks he's verrrrry cute. then zach had to leave for work. so i started thinking that it was time for me to stop acting like i dont like him and suck it up and admit it. so i decided to cook him dinner friday night. was debating the whole chocolate covered strawberries thing for dessert but it felt too um dramatic or something. so made a cake instead. and kabobs, salad and breadsticks. we actually went to my parents to make it cause they are out of town. he did the grilling (woohoo) while i decorated the super top secret cake w3ith the words "will you be my baby" we ate then i busted out the cake and asked him to read what it said. he did and then i said "ok" so now i officially have a boyfriend. (he had already asked me on tuesday if i was gonna be his baby and i told him hell fucking no, cause i was being um distant.) so it was adorable then we played with mittens then watched tv. aaron and annie came over and we played euchre. then they left for a party and zach and i came back to my house. we watched love actually, which i love. somewhere about the time that joanna starts singing he and i started making out and it just kept going and going and i was loving it. so we were pretty much naked and he tried to eat me out and i didnt let him cause i dont love him. he looked all confused, since he knows how many guys ive had sex with. i tolod him sex was fine but the oral stuff can wait. that cheerted him up a bit. he didnt have a condom (wow, he really wasnt expecting me to give in) but i told him i had put 4 in my purse cause i want sure how long we'd be at my parents (hahahahaha) so then he laughs then gets all serious. says he has something he has to tell me. oh god i was scared. turns out, the big secret is...................................... he's not circumcised!!! Holy fucking shit. So i dont really know much about that and told him it was interesting but since he was coming out as being all natural i had to let him know... my boobs are surgically unaltered so its sort of the same thing, i guess. haha i dont know. so then we did it and it was amazing, like 5 times amazing but he almost killed his knee, which has no skin on it cause of a slide he did at softball on sundasy. so anyway it was lovely and after wards i looked at it and it is strange but i kind of like that its different. cause he's different. in a good way. so then we hung out for an hour and a half or so long then i made him leave which was bitchy of me but my nose is all stuffed up and i didnt wanna be snoring in his face all night. oh i forgot this - last week in muncie i mentioned that iwanted some colts beads cause i didnt have any. well last night he brough me some. isnt he the best. wow. and hes funny. a few too many movie quotes coming out of his mouth and random times but we can work on that. haha. i hate this fucking keyboard cause the delete is small and i always miss it. so today he may or may not go with me to gmas then he's got the bachelor party. tomorow we're going to his game. gosh. then next weekend a m,ovie qwith aaron and annie, then the weekened after that .. . i dont know yet, but the weekend after that is camping and the one after that we're doing something with ryan and emily. goodness. oh i was a mess yesterday cause i was sick and my face is bright red from the tanning bed and it hurts and i felt like shit. left work early and everything. felt much better out of work though (nose unstuffed promptly once i got out of that building.) wasnt sure if i was gonna have hikm over for dinner or not, since i was so sick. but has already chopped and marinated meat and made cake so couldnt really postpone it. but in the end it sll worked out. wasnt actually planning to do him but wore cute undies anyway, thank goodness! he's so skinny it's weird. i gues maybe he's not "skinny" so much as he's not fat. at all. was weird cause am used to uh having more to grab onto or something during sex. but i suppose i can get used to this. oh and i was all nervous cause i ams o damn fat lagtely. and i kind of told him about it later and he pinned me down, stared me right in the eyes and told me to shut up and told me i am beautiful and he likes me just like this and doesnt want me to change one bit. geez. but i am gonna lose some tummy anyway. he wont miss it, im sure. ha. ok well thats that, i guess... :) oh and he said he knows we're going to be together for a long long time. i could totally be getting played here but i really doubt it. hes sincere and thoughtful and funny and tall and pretty damn gorgeous. oh lord i am insecure. whew. ok gotta go do situps, bbb